| WEIRD COINCIDENCES
These are weird twists of fate and odd things that have happened recently and not so recently. These are in no particular order and I'll do my best to remember details such as dates and items that might be important to prove or disprove any higher intervention. 1. DŽjˆ vu - all through life The last instance of this happening was last night (5/3/04), and certain chemicals were involved, so this may or may not be a valid instance. However, when I was on my way from the kitchen to my stereo about to change the music, I got the weirdest sense that either this happened before or I had dreamed it, even up to Dan being at the kitchen table telling me his opinion of the music currently playing. Then that reminded me of a time when I was remembering his old apartment out loud and I had imagined it in reverse and he had corrected me. His apartment was for the same people I currently rent from. His building was down the street, facing the main road. Mine faces a side road in the opposite direction, which means my apartment is also facing in the reverse direction, the layout being the same as his otherwise. 2. My cat - since October 2002 I've heard it said that pets are psychic. Now that I've owned and loved a pet I've noticed quite a few odd things. She's always at the door when I come home, whether I saw her at the window or not, the latter probably attributed to recognizing my car and/or footsteps. She has always known immediately people I've cared a great deal for immediately, rubbing on Toaph's leg and letting him do the wheelbarrow without her usual loud objections, cuddling up to Martin almost immediately, and hanging out with Lyndon more than me when he was around. I don't think she understands what I say, but she usually either gets the tone of my voice or reads my mind, because you'd be surprised at how she responds sometimes. I also think she watches over me when I sleep because she is right there most of the time when I lie down.
5. Moving from Binghamton back to Ithaca - March 2000 I don't know what forces were at work in this situation or why they decided to shine on me that month, but something helped me out, I can't deny it. I was with Dan at the time in Binghamton where I knew no one and from what I had seen of the city it was looking like I didn't want to. I was about to lose my job and things were on a hair trigger between Dan and I. I was about ready to die, honestly. I wasn't suicidal but I did want to give up. Just when I thought of running away and starting in a place far away possibly as a street urchin, I get an e-mail out of the blue from a former employer telling me I had a job to come back to if I wanted to come back to Ithaca where she had said there were no vacancies before. I was also chatting on gay.com at the time with a nice guy from Ithaca (who shall remain nameless) and he had just happened to mention that he was looking for a roommate in his apartment when I had come back floating from the e-mail. I told him to hold on while I thought a moment and immediately my friend Paul called. I saw this for what it was and proceeded to ask him if he was available at the end of the week to help me move out of there. "That's weird," he mentioned. I asked for detail and he said that he had a banquet for his workplace this Saturday that had been cancelled and the reason for his out-of-the-blue call to me was to see what was going on that day. I set a time with him and immediately said yes to the guy in Ithaca and e-mailed my former employer saying yes, I would take the job. I moved out of there smooth as glass that Saturday. 6. Songs on the radio - all my life This might not seem so weird because this happens to a lot of people, but the out of the blue nature of both the thought of the song and the station choice was a little unsettling at times. (I'm not sure what else I'll have to add to this page, seeing as how these things always happen, as the clichŽ says, when you least expect them. I'll keep ya posted.) EPILOGUE: The other side of the coin To balance out this page just a tad, I will have to admit we can make anything out of anything if we put our minds to it hard enough. There is also such a thing as mass hysteria ("War of the Worlds" comes to mind immediately). An example of my personal mistake is that spanned for nine years. I used to keep track of how my days went starting when I was nine by writing a journal and labeling each day as a good day or a bad day and explain why. I wish I had kept those because it would have shown just how frigged up I was and why I am the way I am today. I was also very religious in a self-inflicted-Catholic-lotsa-guilt way and believed these were rewards or punishments. Anyway, this combined with learning how to masturbate manifested itself into a very guilt-ridden adolescence, where I believed that every time I masturbated God would smite me in a small way somehow. So don't ignore coincidences, just don't go overboard since random is obviously the strongest force. Of course, life has its way of disproving grand assumptions such as these. Forget I said that. Back to the Higher places
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